and then went through a regular third degree as to why I had not responded when they came back into the house. Fortunately they started out again and I was able to return the clothing without further incident.

Again, I remember a pair of purple rayon bloom- ers which Mother had worn in the early 20's and since neglegted to discard. As a teenager I loved to wear them under my trousers and go to the movies with one of my chums. He lived about a mile from my home and as I walked down the dark, shady street, I would revel in the feel of the satin against my legs. hips would sway in a most unboyish manner.

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Through this period I developed a guilt complex. Perhaps this stemmed from the fact that I carried my "dressing up" strictly in private and was ashamed to have anyone know about it. I realize that what I was doing was not commonly accepted. I must have con- cluded that it was morally wrong, rather than that it was simply a part of an individual personality, nam- ely my own. Since I found it impossible to resist, I went through all sorts of mental agony, especially when under emotional stimulus as at the Y. M. C. A. conferences. The effect of this was to keep my TV life on a completely clandestine basis. For example at the university there was a dramatic group which annually staged an operetta with men students playing all the roles. I would have given my eye teeth to have taken part, but I didn't even try out for fear that the real me would be discovered.

This conflict continued for many years and it was not until I began my theatrical activities in "Bobbie's" favor, but certainly a long way in that direction. Το plan this in proper perspective let me give more of my background.

During graduate school I married, went to work on completion of my training and established a home. We have three adopted children about whom our home life has revolved for nearly twenty years. I have had many interests and hobbies which I have thoroughly enjoyed even though some of them have been quite masculine in nature. I have operated a fruit farm avocationally

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